Disconnected

I feel very disconnected right now. I haven't seen my friends in what seems like years and all I do is sit around the house, go for stupid walks, and feel sorry for myself. I miss feeling like I have a social life and that people actually want to be around me for more than an hour. I miss my life.

I'm hoping to get into the warehouse for July so I can start paying off bills and save up some money to help with school in the fall; if I can maintain my spot. York continuously fucks me over and this time it might cost me my places. Sure I can try and re-enroll but I doubt I'll get back into the classes I want. I'm starting to think school isn't worth it; it's so much hassle. I'm going to graduate with a useless degree and end up working shitty jobs or teaching for the rest of my life. Not really what I had in mind.

It's a beautiful day but I'm in a sour mood. No one's here to enjoy it with me. I'm worried about the end of the month (which is coming up really fast) and I'm pretty sure I have a double ear infection.

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Dawnie